A friend once told me she felt like she “should” pioneer but couldn’t quite bring herself to do it. She was conflicted. I encouraged her to start with auxiliary pioneering, just to take that first step. In the end she didn’t pioneer, and that’s okay. But I’ve thought about it since. What blessings might have been waiting on the other side of that door she didn’t walk through?
Here’s what I’ve come to understand. When there’s an internal conflict about whether to do more for Jehovah, that conflict itself is the signal. We rarely argue with ourselves over something we innately want. If the desire were just coming from us, we’d either do it or we wouldn’t. It’s the push and pull that tells you something else is going on. That urging, that feeling like you should, that’s Jehovah opening a door.
And if Jehovah is the one opening it, he’s not going to send you through unprepared. He’s saying I want you to do this and I will make you capable of it. That’s the promise built into the desire itself.
If you’re feeling that pull right now, toward pioneering, toward a new form of service, toward something more, don’t let the apprehension win. Make yourself available. Jehovah will handle the rest. Be like Israel: don’t pass up a blessing – even if it feels like a struggle.
